Been awhile

It has been awhile. . . sorry. My love's back has been bad, my back was bad, then we went on a vacation. We are back and going to try to start again. She has gone from wanting it in her life to not wanting any part of it to wanting to try it again. She acknowledges that she needs structure in her life and wants to learn to please me more. She remembers how nice it was when we were doing LDD and has suggested harsher punishments because she has a high threshold of pain and because she is a tough nut to crack. She has asked if I am capapble of being strict and forceful. I'm going to try. . . for her, for us, for our family, and for me.